Guys…
I think I’m going to take a leave of absence… BEFORE the end of this semester so my fuck ups with grades won’t go on my record. My parents are going to be upset… partly because I lied to them again about how I was doing with classes. Also, I’m scared because while the school piece isn’t going well and I can’t seem to get work done and I’m clearly not in a place where I want to be doing school I am finally socially happy here and I don’t want to leave that… especially since I have almost nobody my age left at home. I’m scared but I’m going to take my leave of absence and still probably fly home in 2 weeks… Maybe sooner if I can do so without costing my parents a ton of money… but Ill have to deal with storing my stuff and withdrawing from school and telling work and teachers and friends that I will not be coming back next semester… It is going to be hard but I think it is the right choice. This is the first time I have typed or even told someone that I was even considering it let alone that i think i have made a decision. I’m going in to talk to the counselor as soon as they open to see what I need to do. I’m going to go home and work and get into therapy and figure my shit out so that I can not only be socially happy for once but also emotionally healthy and doing well academically again. This is a big decision and I’m scared.
